Smh, I having a hard time coping with alot of things some minor some major. Tyrone's death is still unreal to me. Every morning I wake up and look at his Facebook page to see if he posted or not (part of me still feels like this is a sick joke). I look through his pictures and I do the same thing every night before I go to sleep. I just have so much to say to him. When I'm by myself I can hear his voice, hear conversations we had, I can hear his laugh, I can hear him yelling at me, hear him screaming my name. Guess his spirit is with me. <3 <3 <3

Then I'm a bit saddened with Muffin. I got things I need to say there, but I've refrained from doing so. I shouldn't, I know I shouldn't especially since I learned from Tyrones death that I should never hold grudges or refrain from saying things I need to persons I need to because I dont know if I'll see the again, but I just feel like its pointless to even attempt to say anything.

Then Pinky, I don't even know where to begin. Its funny because sometimes I forget we've been broken up since forever and expect more then I should because of how we are now. I always catch myself though. I just feel bad feel for him, really just need to sit and talk to him because he's pretending to be okay + we haven't had facetime since last week, I need it and I know he needs it too.

School stuff is kicking my ass. With that being said... I'm over it.

Right now in life, I need stability. I feel like I dont have that. Its not that I'm not satisfied... I want more, I crave it.